Geez... I don't know exactly what to say I just know I had to say something. Your response to this is one of the most beautiful and heartbreaking things I've ever read.
I can also relate. I'll spare you the details but in the last 15 months I've experienced more loss and trauma than most people should have to in a lifetime. I lost my home in a fire and my son was born with a heart defect and has suffered through multiple surgeries and complications.
What I can say beyond all certainty is that we learn more about ourselves and the world when we have little to nothing than we do when we are content and comfortable. And coming out of it is the most important and critical time - it's when you should figure out how to pay it forward and contribute something meaningful to the world.
I believe you are like many other great people, you're making the world around you a better and more beautiful place. Follow your passion and the money will follow. Things usually have a way of working out.
Best to you <3