I fear social media. I fear the work involved in doing what I do. Mostly because deep in my mind I know what it requires and it means I must face my deepest insecurities and fears.
I have a place I go that I call my God place. I believe that at this place many of these things will be settled and revealed to me. I was a high flying person of means for most of my life I lost it all.
My son committed suicide, I won’t even bore you with the many details that all involved pain. You have all been thru them. I had cancer twice and a MRSA infection after a couple of the surgeries that really wanted to take me out. My marriage suffered. Money was my obsession and yet since the loss of everything I/We are making nothing we are simply surviving. The stress of this was unmeasurable.
I was offered a high 6 figure job recently. In all ways it was a dream job. In my previous line of work I always wanted more women involved. This has started and has been wonderful. Now I have an amazing woman offering me my dream job.
Then I started thinking about my dream, I started thinking about artists. Why do they create? For the money? Or do they create because they have to. Why do young people come out with the most beautiful poetry of feeling and passion with their music? Because they have the freedom of nothing yet built to lose and the F what the world thinks of them. They just do.
It hit me at that moment at my God place that I will no longer care about the money. It will not be my driving force. I love what I do because and even at my advanced age it is my music. It is what I love to do. I have no barriers of fear, they are all knocked down by the creation of knowing what I am doing is right.
Even if you have
Even if you need
I don't mean to stare
We don't have to breed
We could plant a house
We could build a tree
I don't even care
We could have all three
For me and my beautiful partner of 36 years the importance of doing what we do is the very essence of our love. As strange as it sounds. If I die with nothing I will have died doing what I love for the love of it and not for the money. It makes absolutely no sense and yet somehow it does.
People ask me, why do you adventure and sleep on the ground in a tent? It makes you look small, it makes you look like you are not a large company that some might not do business with you because of it. We simply do it because we love to do it.
And the greatest of these is love. It is important for now and the future.
Fogelberg, part of the plan.
Love when you can, cry when you have to, be who you must, that's a part of the plan. Await your arrival with simple
survival, and one day we'll all understand.