That’s real good - the two are intertwined and mirrored manifestations of the other-
You have a mystical sense of ‘things’ —The quote below from Neville Goddard might speak to you-
Excerpt From: “Your Faith is Your Fortune."
“In the beginning was the unconditioned awareness of being; and the unconditioned awareness of being became conditioned by imagining itself to be something, and the unconditioned awareness of being became that which it had imagined itself to be; so did creation begin.
By this law — first conceiving, then becoming that conceived — all things evolve out of No-thing; and without this sequence there is not anything made that is made.
Before Abraham or the world was — I AM. When all of time shall cease to be — I AM. I AM the formless awareness of being conceiving myself to be man. By my everlasting law of being I am compelled to be and to express all that I believe myself to be.
I AM the eternal No-thingness containing within my formless self the capacity to be all things. I AM that in which all my conceptions of myself live and move and have their being, and apart from which they are not.
I dwell within every conception of myself; from this withinness I ever seek to transcend all conceptions of myself. By the very law of my being I transcend my conceptions of myself, only as I believe myself to be that which does transcend.
I AM the law of being and beside ME there is no law. I AM that I AM.”