“I lied and said I was busy, I was busy; but not in a way most people understand. I was busy taking deeper breaths, I was busy silencing irrational thoughts. I was busy calming a raving heart. I was busy telling myself I am okay. Sometimes this is my busy and I will not apologise for it.” - B.Oakman
I read this quote today and it resonated with me. A lot of people think I'm an extrovert because I'm prolific on social media, but very nearly the opposite is true. I've always relied on alcohol for social lubrication when I'm forced to be in public. I'm cutting alcohol out for an extended period of time in 2019 for dietary reasons, and I'm wondering if I'll find myself that much "busier" as a result.